confusion leading to disgust

your attitudes and responses cheapen me. they make me feel lousy about myself. i feel dirty, too easily available just like a social escort.

maybe my body language made you think that im easy-come-easy-go. maybe i misunderstood your body language as well.

maybe all along im just a one-time-use property, just that i didnt know it myself. i feel ultra digusted with myself.

if im not given any hint on whats happening, all i can do is to keep on second guessing what the hell is going on.

i dont know whats your motive, your purpose, but if its a big great plan to make me hate you, well, i guess you have succeeded.